I try to keep things light and positive on the blog but I also think it's really important to be authentic and real as well. Those who know me know this part of my life but for those of you that only know me through cyberspace you probably don't know that I grew up without a father. I was raised by a single mother who was beyond remarkable and I also had the best grandparents so honestly most of the time in my life I didn't feel like I was lacking. But no matter how great the people are in your life there is always going to be something missing when a parent is not present. In my early adult years after years of therapy I HONESTLY thought I was totally over not having my father in my life but recently Kelly Clarkson came out with her new song, "Piece by Piece" which opened up some wounds I didn't know existed any more. I guess some things you can never fully get over.
Seriously I swear this song was written for me! I can relate to EVERY word and feeling in this song.
And all I remember is your back
Walking towards the airport, leaving us all in your past
I traveled fifteen hundred miles to see you
Begged you to want me, but you didn't want to
But piece by piece he collected me
Up off the ground where you abandoned things, yeah
Piece by piece he filled the holes
That you burned in me at six years old
And you know,
He never walks away
He never asks for money,
He takes care of me
He loves me
Piece by piece he restored my faith
That a man can be kind and a father could... stay
And all of your words fall flat
I made something of myself and now you wanna come back
But your love—it isn't free, it has to be earned
Back then I didn't have anything you needed so I was worthless
But piece by piece he collected me
Up off the ground, where you abandoned things, yeah
Piece by piece he filled the holes
That you burned in me at six years old
And you know,
He never walks away
He never asks for money,
He takes care of me
'Cause he loves me
Piece by piece he restored my faith
That a man can be kind and a father could stay
Piece by piece [6x]
Piece by piece I fell far from the tree
I will never leave her like you left me
And she will never have to wonder her worth
Because unlike you I'm going to put her first
And you know,
He'll never walk away,
He'll never break her heart
He'll take care of things,
He'll love her
And piece by piece he'll restore my faith
That a man can be kind and a father should be great
Piece by piece [3x]
I don't think there is any coincidence that I met my husband when I was 14 years old. I believe I met him at such a young age because God placed in my life to fill a gap in my heart. My heart explodes when I think about my husband as a father and I hear this song. Like I said this song was written for me. I didn't have a father and not only did I not have a father but he was a pretty selfish man who only wanted a one way street. Kevin is the complete opposite and I know that he will always be there for his girls. I never have to question whether he's going to be present, loving, and supportive in their lives. I know he will "never walk away, he'll never break her heart, he'll take care of things, he'll love her, and piece by piece he'll restore my faith that a man can be kind and a father can stay." I thank God for placing such a man in my life and I am so blessed that Kevin is the man and father that he is. He works hard to provide for our family but he works just as hard to be present in our lives. Words won't show my gratitude but I think the music sheds a little bit of light on how I feel about Kevin as a father.
Thank you Kevin for taking care of us girls and restoring my faith. I love you.
If you haven't seen Kelly Clarkson's debut of "Piece by Piece" on American than you MUST watch it and grab the tissues because it's so raw and heartbreaking.
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| My handsome hubby and my gorgeous girls! |
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